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We will not stop! Love will not stop!
February 25, 2012, 7:22 am
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We will not stop! Love will not stop! How do I know such things? Because if it was not so I would not be here, these fingers would not dance across the keyboard to speak out to the world for nothing more than a need to express truth, to encourage life to continue and continue with song and optimism and joy. A long time ago a woman grew a child inside of her, it was uncomfortable, it was painful and inconvenient but she did it anyway, why I don’t know because I don’t have a uterus but I know that her suffering resulted in me and despite my misgivings about being born I am most eternally greatful that I am here, in this world with all of you, all of you who read these words, even if you never read these words. You see what she was doing was defying the dying universe. She was was bringing light out of the darkness, that is what all mothers do and and we can all be mothers we can all bring out the light, we can insist that we keep our babies safe and warm until they are strong enough to stand and speak and love all on their own. Those babies may be beautiful delicate and real with tiny toes or they may be poems or songs or inventions or paintings or anything else we choose to risk everything for. I talk and we all talk about how bad the world is, how corrupt and dark and horrible it is but that is not really what I believe and it is not how the world actually is. All life, everything, is an expression of love and defiance and strength and trust. Love is to Live with a different vowel.

We will not stop! Love will not stop! This is what fear and its followers cannot grasp or understand, that no matter what we suffer, no matter what we endure, life in all its glory and beauty will never give in, it will never stop wishing and hoping for more, it will never stop crying and singing into the night for more love, more time, more beauty, more truth. Fear is restrictive, Love is expansive. Fear and control deprives while the mother of us all and the mother of the earth feeds us although she almost bursts. She, The Great Eternal Mother strokes her beautiful smooth belly and whispers encouragement to the sparkling gem of creation inside of her. No matter what we throw at her she will always love her baby, she will fight tooth and nail, she will die to see something new and innocent grow. How can such devotion ever be defeated? Even if you throw all the products of war at her, she breeds an army for eternity. Have no fear brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers because that dark and lonely 1 percent can never rule a Universe built from Love. Love is the Will that lifts dirt towards the stars and it will never ever, ever, ever, ever stop.


Was my true love hit by a bus?
February 25, 2012, 4:23 am
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We are all in this complex mess called life together of that I am sure we can all agree, that wherever we are coming from in our hearts, if we have hearts, is a place of wanting to be happy, wanting to be loved, but we have been hurt and hindered by the heartless and our own heartlessness that we cannot trust, that we cannot believe that love could exist, that to hope for it would be foolish, that to believe in something real and eternal in this fucked up craziness of human relationship’s is impossible.

Still I don´t believe that to be the case, love after all is all we have ever been seeking, we may build bridges to serve a function but we are driven by the urge to be seen, to be respected and of course to do good to others, we all want to see and portray ourselves in our best light but that is often so fragile, so weak that we don believe it is sufficient to see our beloved in the gloom of the world.

I may never taste your lips again but as our friends, the physicists know, matter is eternally intertwined like balls of string stretching across the infinity of the universe, every atom of ours that has ever touched, is forever connected and literally moved instantly corresponding to the other, this is not science fiction, this is the current reality of our universe as our best knowledge of subatomic physics tells us, so even physicists in their searching have found love and an eternal one at that.

Though what does this console us in the dark nights of winter? We cannot hold and kiss and laugh with atoms. We want to know how to find the true one that we love, that one may well have been hit by a bus, but, they were out there. We want to find our other, our complimentary particle, our harmony, our straight or funny man or woman, our friend.

You all want to find them and hold them and never let them go and never make any stupid mistakes ever again but we will, of course because we’re human, but what if you found them and you were already perfect and complete without them? That’s impossible, you say and I think it might just be, if not impossible, incredibly undesirable, love after all is a dance, a poem, it needs polarities, so it can roll against itself, it needs counterpoint, it needs the thing that seems in such short supply, that is, grace. I have had it poured on me at times in my life and felt alive but I want to live in grace and I think the only time I have ever felt it for any length of time was with someone close to me and the way they looked at me and the way I looked at them.

So assuming they have not, been hit by a bus and are out there, how do we know who they are when we meet them? Perhaps they should develop an app for that, but fuck that, we know and it surges and burns in us and keeps our eyes from closing so we don´t miss a single thing.
The powers surge around us all, great vast powers of time and space and coincidence and chance and evolution and myths and gods that speak over our shoulders. What does it whisper in our ear? That we are lost and all is hopeless in our restless search for love or that everything is fine and that love can never be found because it was never lost, just mislaid. That it is everywhere, obvious, right out there in the open. But some of you seem to show it more than others and I want to talk to you in particular, so leave a message after the tone.

save the human
April 10, 2009, 6:22 am
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well here it is, i have since expanded my compassion with my actions. i have determined for myself, through my own logic, intuition, reason and love that i will be a vegan. i have for over a year now been a vegetarian because of moral, spiritual, practical and ecological reasons.  because life is indeed precious, because i no longer wished to destroy animals of complexity.  because i couldn’t bear to participate in the destruction of animals with hearts and minds, with fears and joys, however simple.

the process has been rewarding for me. i have grown in so many ways, i have become more conscious of what i do with my food, with my hands, with my money. i have developed a greater reverence for life and isn’t this a good thing?  surely it is a good thing.  we all like to say we’re in favour of life, that death is bad and yet daily we participate in unnatural death, in killing.  just because someone does the act does not remove us from the process.  we can’t deny responsibility, our hands earn our wage and wage pays the hands of another to do the acts we could never bring ourselves to do.

ask yourself if you are at all repulsed at the thought of killing an animal bigger than an insect.  there is a reason for that, we intuitively, compassionately know that killing is wrong. if you don’t believe me, then imagine your child, or having a child or imagine yourself as a child and they or you sit in a restaurant with your family and your parents ask what you want.  a child orders lamb and moments later a lamb is led into the room, the child is offered a sledge hammer and then must bring it down.  how do you think they or more importantly you would do at that, as a child?  i don’t mean to get all graphic and vegefantic, it’s just the thoughts that i’ve been having of late.  no judgement, we each make our chocies.

at present i work in a cafe, nestled on a lake, it is so beautiful it hurts.  the sun glinting off the water, the birds all around, families and couples enjoying drinks in the autumn sunlight.  it’s all so civilised, so picturesque but i’m witness to all the behind the scenes and because i am commited to a life without killing for food when not needed i can see the hypocrisy.  i can see people order duck while ducks swim serenely by.  i see people order the fry-up, that would have been me not so very long ago, they appear pasty, dead and dying themselves.

so i deliver these plates all arranged with culinary flair to whetted lips and know that i can never do this again.  that i cannot even participate in this any longer. though i do because almost daily i am asked what the chicken livers or the steak sanga is like and i gently inform them that i don’t know, i’m a vegetarian.  they often seem interested, they often crack jokes, they often ask questions.  everyone it seems wants to know, so why are you a vegetarian?  i never ask the question back at them.  why are you a meat eater?  instead i give my reasons, i do so calmly, i crack jokes, i’m as honest as i can be about the process, about the difficulties, about my liking of the taste of certain things.  i think people need a stronger reason to daily consume living things than “i like the taste.”  what if i like the taste of kittens?  can i eat them with impunity?  can i bite their little fluffy heads off near a play park as people do to duck in the cafe, while kids feed donald and co. nearby?  most people would say no, but why, why the double standard?  why only some animals.  life is life is life.  you either value it or you don’t.

i’m preaching but that’s just as much to me as anyone else.  i’m trying to understand my own feelings, my own motives. now this new venture into the process.  no more dairy, nor milk, or butter, or eggs, no honey.  no wonderful delicious cheese.  i think i might miss that one but there are other cheeses which don’t require animal suffering or give me cancer of the everything.  still despite the difficulties i feel so good about my decision.  i feel lighter, i feel simpler, i feel more at peace if that’s possible.  i feel that through my actions, however small, i can make a difference in the world.  that i can reduce the collective suffering of this planet in some small way.  this was shown in such a small way in that another waitress after spraying some wasps apologised to me.  my action had triggered a doubt in her mind about her action.  i didn’t scowl, or tell her off, it was her decision.  i’m not about to judge, wasps after all, fucking annoying.  still they’re life and i don’t get to choose what lives and what dies.  i don’t think anyone should and if it’s needed to save your life then maybe and with a prayer and with gratitude and with much reverence.

there are so many other reasons to change to a life without killing.  you can truly save the planet.  as this video testifies.

Save The Human! “Don’t Eat The Planet” Music Video

there are so many health reasons too and i guarantee it’s not that hard and you’re not giving anything that amazing up.  i barely notice it anymore.  then someone or something reminds and i know i made a difference to that one animal, or that one.  i allowed life to be.  i allowed love. i allowed something that, like me, seeks life, growth, health, sustenance and joy in this miracle of existence to do just that and all i had to do was nothing.